38 weeks and counting down the minutes. I still have plenty to do at work, just waiting for some last minutes plans to be put into place, but still expecting that at any minute Ill start having contractions and he'll be here! I can always finish up those things after he comes, but it leaves me with anxiety. The house seems as clean as can be, all the laundry is caught up, guest rooms ready, and projects almost complete. I think he will be here soon!
*I assure you, that is not my nipple in this last picture. looks like the sun glare right next to a big freckle! Sorry
Dear baby bird,
We have finally come to agree on your name!!! We both had gone back and forth with so many different names, ideas, and tried to make it sound perfect and also "feel" perfect to us. We have thought of so many, and just out of the blue, came up with these 2 (first and last) and fell in love. It's the feeling I've been waiting for the last 9 months in order to feel content! Now I feel ready, well as long as he still comes out a boy!!. I am 36 weeks in these pictures, but today I am 38 weeks. I decided to take some pictures in my bathing suit because I feel like it shows my true, real, and complete pregnancy body. Although I have not gained a whole lot of extra weight, I still have issues with the weight gain, my body changes, and how others perceive me (especially your daddy).
I have become very comfortable with my pregnancy body, but also very insecure. I guess thats expected when a mommy goes through this process. I tried not to photoshop anything in these pictures except the color balances of the photos, and a few real big glitches. I also understand that it's a little revealing, but it's something I wanted to do and have to look back on 30-40 years from now.
I am now anxiously waiting each day for you to come. I had my 38 week check yesterday and the Dr. said that you have dropped, I am 100% effaced, and 2 cm dilated. Meaning, you could come any day, any moment! I cannot wait!!! I have everything ready for you, ready for me, and ready for our emotions as parents. Well maybe not everything, because everyone tells you that it's something you'll never be prepared for, but we feel pretty ready.
I have gained a total of 22 pounds, weighing in at 147, whoa. My body is retaining water like I am a natural sea animal. Ankles huge, thighs huge, and hands swollen. I still have an innie belly button which I love, and my negra line (down my belly) has really faded which I love too. There are several other new things that are happening, like bodily functions that have never been a problem before, but now they are.
I have not purchased any maternity clothes, so now a days Im only down to a few pieces of clothing to wear. A pair of back leggings, some V-necks from american apparel, and one pair of stretchy jeans. No heels, ever, flip flops and uggs. It is very relaxing to wear those things, but frustrating that I can't dress up a little nicer when I go on dates with daddy. I feel so frumpy. It'll all change in a few weeks when I can start wearing normal clothes again.
I also can no longer bend over, shave my legs, or put on shoes. I just hold my breathe and try to get it done. 20 minutes later, Im off.
I love you so much already and my emotions have been so extreme lately. I am so incredibly happy one minute about you getting here, and then get very angry and upset the next, (not because of you, but other stuff) Sorry Gordon. I know its the hormones, and the fact that Im a few days from given birth but I still wish I could be more consistent.
Mommy and daddy love you and can't wait to meet you. Wish us luck and even though you'll be reading this after you're older, we still need the luck to be able to raise you.
Love always, Mommy.